welcome back myself.

Today I am picking up my blog again. Very similar to the person I was when I left it. Few small things have changed, but in the large scheme of things, nothing of vital importance. Although I am back at school which is relatively new and exciting and is the main reason that I have drifted back to blogging. I would like to consider myself not as a "blogger" but more a writer. Throwing thoughts out into space, not caring if anyone takes this time to read them or not, they're in my head, itching to be free and this is a way I can assist them. Over the last few months things have taken the place of writing, there doesn't seem enough hours in the day to sit down for 5 minutes and jot down a thought. I am taking a philosophy class in school that has really encouraged me to pick up my writing again, to get my thoughts out of my head and onto the paper. I love looking back of the last few years of posts and see change, see growth. Its good for the soul. So my intention with the blog is not to get any comments, or advertise my likes or dislikes, my personal hopes and dreams but merely communicate. Just to write whatever is in my head. A place to babble and ponder to discuss and argue (with myself haha) hopefully the things that matter.

the love of my life. haha.

WORLD MEET CHLOE.

breakdown

today felt like a jack johnson day.


I hope this old train breaks down
Then I could take a walk around
And, see what there is to see
And time is just a melody
All the people in the street
Walk as fast as their feet can take them
I just roll through town
And though my windows got a view
The frame I'm looking through
Seems to have no concern for now
So for now

I need this
Old train to breakdown
Oh please just
Let me please breakdown

slowly.

the world is spinning in one continuous motion
they say we don't even care
i say its hard to jump onto this spinning globe they're slowly killing

they say we're causing the pain
we're the ones making the world a fearful place
may i point out who is suppose to be teaching us?

we say we need˙chånge, we to brainstorm
but we need to realize
we're headed in the same direction

its our turn to spin the top
our turn to make mistakes
our turn to make history

Its our turn to give hope to death,
to tell them we're ready
we need to make the jump on this spinning globe they're slowly killing

preach it clive.

A man can no more diminish God's glory by refusing to worship Him than a lunatic can put out the sun by scribbling the word, 'darkness' on the walls of his cell.
C. S. Lewis

young. forever. young

So I saw this picture in a magazine and it made me laugh. I would love to do a photo shoot of this type, and I would really enjoy those glasses if they were mine.

It made me think of this song...

Let's dance in style let's dance for a while,
Heaven can wait we're only watching the skies,
Hoping for the best but expecting the worst,
Are you gonna drop the bomb or not?

"Let us die on let us live forever,
Don't have the power but we never say never,
Sitting in the sandpit life is a short trip,
Music's for the sad man

Can you imagine when this race is run,
Turning up our faces into the sun,
Praising our leaders getting in tune,
Music's played by the mad man

Forever young, I want to be forever young,
Do you really want to live forever?
Forever forever,
Forever young, I want to be forever young,
Do you really want to live forever?
Forever, forever"

If your musical genre's aren't quite open enough for the awesome 80's original version of that song, Youth Group does a pretty amazing cover. Its a tad more modern.

S.A.D

the best/ S.A.D-est party of all times.

(that i have ever thrown, actually its the first i have ever thrown.)

they are bad pictures but fun times.

the obligated post.

"Let no one who loves be unhappy.
Even love unreturned has its rainbow." -- J.M. Barrie

the obligated valentines day post.

slow sanctification... so very slow

"26 Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words. 27 And he who searches hearts knows what is the mind of the Spirit, because [6] the Spirit intercedes for the saints according to the will of God. 28 And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, [7] for those who are called according to his purpose. 29 For those whom he foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, in order that he might be the firstborn among many brothers. 30 And those whom he predestined he also called, and those whom he called he also justified, and those whom he justified he also glorified."

Romans 8:26-30


Sometimes you know truth in your heart, you repeat it over and over with your mouth but making the connection with your heart seems impossible. Sometimes you get those days when you can't make your heart feel joy, you feel so tainted with sin and overwhelmed in your own insufficiencies that you are blinded from the amazing awe inspiring abilities of Christ. The world classifies that as a "bad" day. The bible classifies it as sin, specifically pride, you are so sure of your own capabilities that you try and accomplish life without Christ you try and weasel your way from His hand, thankfully His hand never lets go. No matter how hard we try to get away. "And those whom he called he also justified, and those whom he justified he also glorified."- THIS IS TRUTH.

-Yesterday, Today and Forever

"Yesterday, today and forever
Jesus your the same your love will never change
yesterday, today and forever
none can separate me from your love."

-He's Always Been Faithful

"I can’t remember a trial or a pain
He did not recycle to bring me gain
I can’t remember one single regret
In serving God only, and trusting His hand
All I have need of, His hand will provide
He’s always been faithful to me. "

it looks nice

I can see a lot of life in you.
I can see a lot of bright in you.
And I think the dress looks nice on you.
I can see a lot of life in you.


When the world looks back,
when the face looks after that,
I can see a lot of life in you.
Yes, I can see a lot of life in you.

sludge

My brain is having a hard time processing things today, I have like 10 ideas for one post.. haha.

So here is what has been going on in my brain.. (hope yo can sludge through it. )

-Today I was at Missions Fest. It was really neat to see God using all different types of ministies to accomplish his purpose. It was very humbling.
- I was very convicted of my lack of a prayer life.
-Very convicted especially of not praying and caring for some people that God has purposefully put in my life. (from work etc.
-Very stoked about the JAKK music video that will be surfacing on our blog in the next month.
-Very grateful for my family.
-Very grateful for my friends
-Very grateful for my church.

amen.

(No shoe picture today sorry for the disappointment, haha)

3:7-13

Ephesians has just been the little book of joy to me lately, every time I open it up I am so overwhelmed at the grace of God and the humility in which Paul is writing and living his life.


ephesians 3:7-13
7 Of this gospel I was made a minister according to the gift of God's grace, which was given me by the working of his power. 8 To me, though I am the very least of all the saints, this grace was given, to preach to the Gentiles the unsearchable riches of Christ, 9 and to bring to light for everyone what is the plan of the mystery hidden for ages in [2] God who created all things, 10 so that through the church the manifold wisdom of God might now be made known to the rulers and authorities in the heavenly places. 11 This was according to the eternal purpose that he has realized in Christ Jesus our Lord, 12 in whom we have boldness and access with confidence through our faith in him. 13 So I ask you not to lose heart over what I am suffering for you, which is your glory.

by grace through faith

Ephesians 2:1

"And you were dead in the trespasses and sins 2 in which you once walked, following the course of this world, following the prince of the power of the air, the spirit that is now at work in the sons of disobedience— 3 among whom we all once lived in the passions of our flesh, carrying out the desires of the body [1] and the mind, and were by nature children of wrath, like the rest of mankind. 4 But [2] God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, 5 even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ—by grace you have been saved— 6 and raised us up with him and seated us with him in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, 7 so that in the coming ages he might show the immeasurable riches of his grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesus. 8 For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, 9 not a result of works, so that no one may boast. 10 For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them. "

I have been really easily distracted lately, (like more then usual haha). These verses have been such an amazing reminder of Gods grace in my life. By taking 2 minutes out of my day to stop and read these over my focus is drawn to Christ, and the gospel. It reminds me of my guilty helpless state and His unending grace. If I can challenge you to keep this piece of scripture fresh in your mind for the rest of this week, just really try and depend on this, think it, live it, believe it.

(the shoe picture has so been done apparently, but these are really fun shoes.

el dusto

"hello starshine the earth says hellooo"

i will be returning to you all tuesday evening, i am happy about returning home, but dreading the rain and snow.

lemon drops

Somewhere over the rainbow, way up high

There's a land that I heard of, once in a lullaby

Somewhere over the rainbow, skies are blue

And the dreams that you dare to dream

Really do come true

so this is the new year

So this is the new year.
And i don't feel any different.
The clanking of crystal
Explosions off in the distance

So everybody put your best suit or dress on
Let's make believe that we are wealthy for just this once
Lighting firecrackers off on the front lawn
As thirty dialogs bleed into one

I wish the world was flat like the old days
Then i could travel just by folding a map
No more airplanes, or speed trains, or freeways
There'd be no distance that could hold us back.

This is a copy cat post of Tina's, but I like this song and its the new year.

"waiting, waiting on you"

someone is waiting just on the other side
they are waiting for your voice
they are waiting for that tone
to feel your presence and see your smile

knowing they are there waiting,waiting for you
makes just any house your home
its a feeling you can't know until you hold it
they are waiting, waiting for you

either strong arms or little hands that grasp you
it doesn't really matter they hold the same weight
something you won't know until its gone
until they aren't waiting, waiting for you.

snow thoughts

Ever wonder why snow is so magical? Its like this light little fairy dust falling from the sky. I don't understand how, and I don't understand why but God allows us to experience snow, and that is something I am so grateful for. Today as I was skipping down the street in my sweater and shoes that were 2 sizes to big I felt like I was in a giant snow globe, the flakes had no apparent patten to how they were falling and my fingers didn't feel the cold. All I could feel was joy.

photo credit. kars

ring. the ring.

"It came without ribbons! It came without tags!
It came without packages boxes, or bags!"
And he puzzled and puzzled, till his puzzler was sore.
Then the Grinch thought of something he hadn't before!
"Maybe Christmas," he thought, "doesn't come from a store. Maybe Christmas in fact means a little bit more."

granville. sharp.

"A Critical moment in the abolitionist cause was quickly approaching . Like-minded men and women were finding each other, sharing stories, and beginning to form strategies. Clarkson also met James Ramsay, who knew Wilberforce and who just two years earlier at the Teston home of the Middletons had been instrumental in bringing the cause of the slaves to Wilberforce's attention."
-Amazing Grace, Eric Metaxas

I have been reading about the life of William Wilberforce, William Pitt, Granville Sharp and many other who played leading roles in abolishing slavery. I have been so moved by their passion for change and the stand against they took against the government to abolish slavery. God used these men to change the face of history, and when you look at their lives you see how remarkable and confusing the life of William Wilberforce was. Let me try and explain...

William Wilberforce went to live with his aunt and uncle at a young age because of the state of his mothers health and his fathers death. They had a huge religious effect of William's life, although when he attended college he lost sight of what his aunt and uncle held so dear. Although he did meet a life long friend William Pitt. They both had a number of interesting events that led them into government at the young age of 24. William Pitt became Prime Minister and William Wilberforce became his right hand man. After having a few run-ins with some very famous people such as, John Wesley, John Newton, William Cowper George Whitefield he had a dramatic conversion to Christianity and came very close to pulling from government. With the advice of some dear friends to hold his powerful place in government William continued his efforts in the "reformation of manners." He did many great things to improve the English society. His attention was then shifted to slavery where his political position was very important. He reunited with many of his former acquaintances and united with men and women around europe to abolish slavery.

If you read details of his life it is so obvious that God had his hand so specifically on William Wilberforce's life, directing his every move. It is so awe inspiring to be able to see how God directed thousands of peoples lives to all work together to accomplish something he could have done with a snap of his finger. But he chooses to use frail human vessels. What an amazing thing.